This recent photo says SO much. Really, I was just being silly.
But even just the fact that I was being silly says so much. If ya know what I mean.
I have felt ready to live. Ready to take on the world. Ready to fly. Ready to have fun. Ready to be less serious. Ready to take life in.
For instance, I went grocery shopping. I had been out shopping, by myself, for three hours and would gleefully giggle while wearing this silly large grin as I pushed my packed cart to the car ... caring very little what other's might be thinking about me.
What's different in this situation than the past?
A) I went grocery shopping. Period.
B) I went alone. (For a couple of years, I couldn't do this alone. Body was too weak mind couldn't think straight.)
C) I was out shopping - for hours.
D) I was out shopping for hours - and felt happy, giddy, and energetic at the end of it all.
E) I was aware of other's around me, of life, of things, of ... shopping!
Life has been different. I'm sillier. I'm annoyingly energetic. I've taken on teaching a variety of classes. I've selected the college I want to go to to obtain my Naturopathic Doctor degree and am ready to tackle it.
Life is good.
It was only one year ago that I began getting the treatments in Pocatello. It was only one year ago I knew I had months left to live.
One small year. So close to exiting this world.
What's changed?
The IV treatments did wonders. The lypo C did wonders. The essential oils did wonders. They brought me to a good point but I've started a new treatment protocol. It requires 1 to 1 1/2 hours of my time every evening. But it gifts me with life the next day and will, one day, be something I won't have to do at all.
I'm still not completely better. There are issues that need addressing outside of the Lyme but I feel free to live life.
And am feeling ... goooood!
